Often life throws us challenges and hurdles that can bring us down. So with life already at me, why would I make choices and decisions to result in a new lowest of lows? I cannot answer this question easily, it has to with being irresponsible.
All I know is that I owe a lot to those around me and even more to myself. My real self. It's often easy to settle with "what is" or just to dream big. I find myself in limbo between these two. The bottom line is I need to start doing more.
I owe a lot to my family. Words, money or actions won't be able to express my gratitude. The only thing I want accomplish in 2011 is regaining respect. 2011 will be a challenging year, a hard year, one where I must start from the bottom and slowly work my way up trying to earn that back.
This doesn't really have to do with New Years, it has to do with a New ME. New Years just happens to be the venue.
I must constantly remind myself to do better.